Through Cotton Wool
For my grandfather
Below are the notes about
the relationship between my buried-in-cotton-wool
consciousness and the Holy Spirit, that Holy Spirit
which descended upon the apostles in the first century.
By cotton wool I mean my self-induced stupidity and
numbness as a response to my personal life and the life
in the USSR in general. I read anything I could,
listened to the music of all kinds, drew and painted,
and tried to deal with the reality outside of my mind as
little as possible, often pretending to be an idiot.
Because of that, I am unable now to remember much of the
factual canvas of my life in the USSR. On the contrary,
the memories of the intermittent pecking of the Holy
Spirit are very clear, contrasting with the amorphous
fog. These pecks or specks and what came out of them
show that anyone who truly wants to can find God and His
Church in any circumstances whether s/he is screwed up
inside or lives in a screwed up country or both.
Contents
The background
Climbing the walls
Baptism
Nowhere
Aum Shinrikyo and the
fools
More fools
The meeting
Two years of grace
Inside the Church
Miracle
The End
Trousers: Russian
Orthodox Church Outside of Russia (ROCOR)
Trousers: Serbian
Orthodox Church
Trousers: Greek
Orthodox Church
In the desert
Eucharist
Breaks
In the world
Unbending
Evaporation
Two Churches
Now
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